still lily

on hats and breaking through...

2012-01-25T05:53:00.001-08:00

it is a bit of a mystery but for some reason since the age of around 9 i have knitted...however, in all the years (it's quite a few years, mind you), all the yarn, all the work has ever resulted in have been scarves, long scarves, short scarves, scarves that get sewn together to make cowl neck scarves, sure, i got creative and made some wrist/arm warmers and even a headband, but never have i learned to read a pattern, or understand knitting lingo...i am not saying these things because i think it rather admirable to just stay in a wee box and just do what you know/are comfortable with, au contraire mes amis, i guess there is a bit of charm in just teaching oneself ladadada, so low and behold, i went out and bought myself some needles on the round (this, before was a very daunting act),...took a few tries and many pots of tea, but here she is my first hat ever (still needs to be sewn at top)...

this brings me to a point and back to this idea...i trusted i could do the hat thing (which, btw was pretty silly easy)...now, i must trust that i can make and bring to completion the other creatives of which i do so love...it can happen...with trust.

what might you be trusting in these days?

a lovely sharing...

2012-01-12T11:21:00.000-08:00

i was touched by this and hope you find it a lovely sharing...

may you never forget to remember those things of utmost importance to you, for they are often right where you are...

happy thursday

rock solid intention...

2012-01-10T09:57:00.000-08:00

because there is not one single being as amazing as you...

personalized just for your unique intention, life, soul...

in stone...

right here

the right time...

2012-01-09T09:55:00.000-08:00

Well, it would seem there really is no better time than a fresh, new year to start fresh creations...so, this is a wee little preview of something sparkling new heading into the shop...

We all have our own, personal, wonderfully unique & special ideas about our lives, loves, desires, goals, talents...you get it...here comes that word again...our own intentions....

and since, in my humble opinion, it is sort of nice to have your special word/idea close at hand to glance at, giggle, remind thyself, be calmed by, stay focused with, and well, just keep on knowing....

so, because i care about your little intended word for the year...i am creating personalized intention tiles and stones....tiles are reclaimed, so not to sit sad and lonely in a local landfill...and well, because there is nothing quite as delightful as the cool, smooth texture of sandstone, all

stones/rocks (not shown here) are lovingly collected for their smooth, raw beauty from the coast of California.

Along with your own unique word or words will come specific favorite color schemes or any other personally significant details just to comfort your wee soul and make you smile.

*Oh and one more delightful side note, all Vintage Kimono Silk Pins in the shop are on sale for January, just because they make any outfit downright beautified and we all deserve a special treat!

Here is hoping you have a splendid day filled with all things you enjoy...or, at least a significant amount of them.

lovely intentions....

2012-01-06T18:10:00.001-08:00

i need a bigger workspace...but i love to work here

with the idea of 'intention' in my mind i am finding it hard to concentrate on anything else...and so, i found myself today in a beautiful state of creativity....it was blissful and insightful, remarkable and musical and well...you get the idea...this is gonna be a great year..i can feel it in my wee bones...

and this is what 'intention' looks like...

I listened to this today and wanted to share

...how you doing where you are? feeling good about this new year?

wishing you warm thoughts, giggles, clarity and some quiet time in your space of the world....

my daily calendar says:

Kiss more,

touch more,

hug more.

so there...now go do it!

word for a year...

2012-01-04T08:24:00.000-08:00

I, like so many, do subscribe to the thought that a word for the year is a wonderful thing...I cannot give you my words of years past or how I have a track record of the remarkable ways that word worked for me and took me to new heights, for there is something about me that, at some point in the year lets the word slip out of my mindset and vocabulary.

There are so many things of which I do creatively that I do not follow through on, so many avenues untraveled and ideas un-nurtured and as a result I just become overwhelmed by all I want to do and have done, but do not know what direction to go with them all.

So, I have been spending the last 3 days of this brand spanking New Year mulling over words, I find myself distracted in Yoga thinking of my intentions...odd as that might seem.

I would like to expand, stay focused, be present, feel lighter of heart, laugh more, resolve, be true, and well, the list really could go on...however, I have decided that the word of the year for me is going to be...are you ready?

drumroll please...

TRUST

myself

love

art

choices

my heart

possibilities

outcomes

risks

adventures

just to name a few...

what is your word for the year?

simple things...

2011-12-19T10:27:00.000-08:00

it is in these simple moments...when time stops and it becomes so clear...

all of the wonderful things that surround, and for which i am most thankful...

sending you heartfelt smiles, warmth and joy

everything will be fine...

2011-12-12T13:35:00.000-08:00

it was much too early to rise on a weekend, however, as FZ slipped out to surf (wayyyy too cold in my humble opinion) i rose in the darkness and near freezing temperatures inside a home, to begin my christmas present making...every year i choose something different to make, last year sugar scrubs, homemade lip balm (will be brewing up another batch this year too), and such...so i was excited to get into the kitchen and begin my process of experimentation...it was lovely to be in the quiet, stillness mixing and blending, christmas tree lights on, essential oils and warm tea in the air...it made me realize how special this time is, and how, when not in the bustle of outside life, it truly is a time to give and be so thankful.

that was yesterday...today i went to yoga where we worked on various 'release' techniques... upon the closing of class, our most amazingly, wonderful instructor simply said 'remember, everything is going to be fine'...these were the most welcomed and happily received words for this gal...

and so, i do believe it is, that everything really will be fine...

may it be so for you, wherever you are at this time of year...

fear...

2011-11-29T18:33:00.000-08:00

"Do one thing every day that frightens you"

~Eleanor Roosevelt

Feeling this quote like nobody's biz...

here is sending you fearless wishes and a most lovely evening...

shifting...

2011-11-26T08:07:00.000-08:00

As the weather changes here in So. Cal and I am reminded, as is the case every year, that I am quite a weakling when it comes to the cold...there is no help in the fact that we cannot turn our heat on in this country home not far from the sea, for a family or small village of 4 legged pesty critters decided to take refuge below our abode sometime ago and it would appear that insulation and ducting are some top items of interest to these not-so-fine furry folks, so we go about our routines inside all bundled in woolen layers and scarves...

stop my heart....this reads 'I Love You Mom'

This is to say that the cold has brought me in, literally, within myself, to sit quietly, warmed next to the fire at night, I have been feeling something shift...there is change coming, is it the new year...who knows...but there is much laying in wait...for what this is...i have not a clue...perhaps you feel it too?

At times my feet feel so grounded, solid and strong, but of late, there is a element of quicksand that dwells beneath my footing, slow and quiet it moves around me, if I keep moving it still finds me...this too is shifting, working to make things stronger, solid and planted firmly, to simplify..

I just read this and rather enjoyed

An Arsenal of Feminine P ower...Feeling Beautiful

Have a fine day...you fine folk.

testing and going mac daddy

2011-11-13T14:43:00.000-08:00

sooo with the arrival of a most beloved and an assessment of our situation, we decided to have this lovely lady (amongst many things) help us in our transition to Mac...and I am quite happy to proclaim we will not be (pc)oming back...so many things to explore and so much to learn, but that is all the fun of it...so here is to art on the patio, tea in the morning and all afternoon, chats by the fire, warm socks, old sweatshirts, bonding and love of a girlfriend, cuddles and long chats about life, so comfortable words cannot describe...how deeply is she already missed...well, as much as the deep blue sea that divides us...until we gather again...

crazy, wonderful dayz...

2011-11-08T20:33:00.001-08:00

sometimes it's crazy hair days...and sometimes it's just crazy days...such is life and it's all good...things have been busy around these parts of late...friends from over the pond (the big ocean pond), creative dabblings, deep discussions, inexplicable meals being prepared, warm fires, red wine, great company, awakenings...just to name a few...hope the world is treating you right...ta ta for now fine folks.

pirate dreaming...

2011-10-30T16:45:00.000-07:00

It is official...I want to be a pirate.

I must say, I have rather enjoyed the wild red wig, flowy and sort of scraggly clothing, boots and lace, not to mention the belts and scarves...being a pirate has made me think (this is not to say the millions who were smitten and taken by Jack Sparrow (that is him behind me btw) have not had this very thought cross their minds, however, I have not had the luxury of watching those films) of how daring and adventurous it must have been to be a pirate back in the day...showing a more brash, rather wild side without mind to others...

Oh, to be a pirate...what are you dreaming of being this time of year?

sunday meanderings...

2011-10-23T19:23:00.001-07:00

this is 8 a.m. i have a new camera...of which i cannot believe i ever lived wihout...

where i go around 9 a.m. or anytime i can...10 a.m. till 1ish!

(he still loves race cars, even when building tracks for our wee man)

2:25 p.m.

we call him 'fat albert' he vanishes in the day and is the largest, most robust spider by sunset...just by accident, we abolished his web last night and woke up to a brand new deal, he was a busy spider guy all night weaving this wonder...

4:40 p.m.

i step down into the garden... i do believe that yellow tomatoes are beyond delicious.

new and fresh...

2011-10-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

hanging out happily over here

wishing you a divine, downright delightfully lovely day.

rock love...

2011-10-19T13:50:00.000-07:00

little glimpse of shop goodness to come...because really i cannot cease loving you...

tightalicious...

2011-10-10T17:16:00.000-07:00

i have many varying designs of them in my closet, i have been known to wear them often, i love them when the weather gets cooler, i suppose you have guessed that I am talking about...tights..yes, i said tights...because after all, skirts and such are made soooo much better with tights...here are some fun ones
compliments of this lovely space...

enjoy and get tightalicious!

brief escape...

2011-10-03T16:26:00.000-07:00

We headed out on caravan with good friends Friday pointing 'Snits' eastward to the mountains ...what struck me as we drove was how long it had been since I had actually camped in the mountains...so long, I cannot precisely recall.

If you have ever been, lived, presently reside or are from California you will understand when I say that this is a majestic and simply beautiful place, I am smitten and in love with this state, my heart was born and bred here, my soul still grows in these surrounds.

Palm trees seamlessly transform into pine trees and the air gets a bit crisper around each bend, as you curve along winding roads. Looking down into deep ravines alongside the highway there are small homes tucked in here and there and I envision the occupants and what they must do...I have always done this, even as a little girl, imagining a woman knitting on her porch, or hanging laundry while singing to her baby, nowadays perhaps technology has taken over and there are much more complicated computer workings happening, taking orders and communicating with folks in France or just up the road...still intrigues me.

Some years ago there was a fire where we camped here, and although it was all over the news and I saw the acres of trees and land being consumed by flames...the devastation never completely sunk in for me until I landed in the midst of remains just this past weekend. Years have brought rains and some new growth, green patches emerge here and yonder, but there is a quiet, still beauty in the trees that stand, black and burnt, but still holding strong. Holes have been left where once they were solid, but still, they hold themselves high and like pillars of history, never to bloom or drop leaves again, but not ready to leave their birthplace.

A graceful dancer...

I was humbled here...my heart spread out over the rocks, branches and dirt, I lifted my head and gave a salute to the tall, burnt arbors of this place. I will be back...very soon.

Welcome Autumn...Come on in

2011-09-23T15:20:00.000-07:00

Days are shorter, there is a crispness in the air, mornings are misty and dew drips from the trees, trickles and shimmers on cobwebs in the early light of day...this time of the year holds me in a calm, cool, quiet place. Even my tea seems more luxurious, warm and comforting.

Autumn carries us gently and prepares us for a shift in time, season, weather, being...in a mellow transition between Summer to Fall

Welcome Autumn...come on in for spell.

today i remember...

2011-09-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

At 7:28 a.m. (California time) today I shared a moment of silence and shed some tears for those dear ones lost 10 years ago...even time does not take away the emotion and feeling...my heart goes out to those today...the one's who are gone and those who are still here.

horoscopes and remembering...

2011-09-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

Growing up my father always read me my horoscope from the daily newspaper, when I was younger he would read what the little paragraph had to say and predict and then he would elaborate something funny into the end and make it all sound like it was together...

Even after I moved out of the house, he would at times send me clippings of them in the mail with little notes and highlighted areas that he saw related to me directly...I loved hearing the predictions, opening the envelopes with the small square of newspaper inside, and knowing that he was thinking of me everyday.

Dancing at my wedding

7 years has passed since he's been gone, may his big, kind-hearted soul rest peacefully.
Then, yesterday, on his memorial, a funny thing happened, a good friend (who never knew my Dad or our little tradition) told me that she had to send me along my horoscope (her daughter shares the same month as my b-day) and she receives them on her iPhone daily ( a concept my father would have had some strong commentary about), as it was so right on for me at this time...it was not until I opened the email and realized not only was she was right, but how the very act of her sending it was so timely and pulled gently at my heartstrings.

Here is what it said:
You have a special talent, Gemini. It might be as an artist, a singer, or a dancer. Or it might be as a mediator, a mathematician, or a counselor. Whatever it is, though, you have underestimated yourself. You have probably heard from scores of people that you have something special, but you don't take it to heart. But now it's time to explore and pursue that gift of yours and take it to the next level. The universe is offering you special support and inspiration for your untapped talent.

My Dad would have liked that one and I am sure would have added something like
"and you need to wear more deodorant"...me at sunset yesterday in front of my father's memory bench...

Here's to you Dad, and me and all the memories.
All my heart and love
KZ

quiet place

2011-08-29T11:27:00.001-07:00

There is a quiet stillness that has landed here around me today, and I am rather relishing in it all...it is called 'back to school'...

and although the summer has been very fun filled with children running wild with activities and adventure (I have at times, just run wild)...this is blissfully peaceful for now and I am soaking it in and pondering on things to come, creative ideas are flowing and unraveling inside.

I hope you are enjoying some calm and quiet wherever you may be.

Proceed gently.

daddy's girl

2011-08-17T16:10:00.000-07:00

right in the middle of a home repair (note tools)...FZ stopped all he was doing to perform a much more important task..painting nails..and btw he is the preferred nail polish application expert in the house.

more august breaks

2011-08-15T14:11:00.001-07:00

And as a bit of a random note...read this if you want to live a kick ass life

away we go

2011-08-09T08:26:00.000-07:00

heading to the seashore...

summertime meanderings

2011-08-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

among the lily pads

2011-08-07T11:13:00.001-07:00

happy weekending

2011-08-05T07:45:00.001-07:00

Loved reading this so passing along to you.

desert dreaming

2011-08-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

down in the yard

2011-08-03T08:39:00.001-07:00

leap in

2011-08-02T14:29:00.000-07:00

sunshine

2011-08-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

a lovely break for august

2011-08-01T13:22:00.001-07:00

I am feeling very excited and happy to be a part of the august break

this will be a fun and simple way to share what august brings quite nicely.

our zucchini friends...

2011-07-28T10:07:00.000-07:00

around these parts...

not only do we eat alot of vegetables... we like to excercise with them too

as well as doing a little dancing ...

and who does not love a zucchini moustache?

they are even cuddled in small arms...

Oh my how we do so love our zucchini's.

can't wait to meet you all..

2011-07-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

going to drive a wee bit of a long way this week to meet, greet and bring home this lovely most amazing 4some of beauty...to be happily placed right here in this wee home in the country, not far from the sea...been waiting a long time for this addition.

hope your week is going simply wonderfully!

vintagely fresh and new...

2011-07-25T07:52:00.000-07:00

Vintage Kimono Silk...so beautiful...don't you agree?

Some new little lovelies here to adorn your hat, purse,

a top of any kind, summer sweater...

well, just about anywhere you attach these

the sun will shine a bit brighter and you are sure to sport a smile.

absent but very present...

2011-07-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

I may be quite blog absent, however, in everyday life I have been very present...between swim lessons, play dates, beach and park jaunts, gardening, cooking for all and new adventures thrown in all over the place, it is all enough to make one Mum completely bushed by days end....happily bushed, I might add.

I am quite excited to share that even throughout all the business of summer there has been some new lovely items created and heading into the shop over le weekend...they are coming from this amazing batch of vintage kimono silk...all i can say is that even in the still of late nights, when all are slumbering soundly, my heart swells and I sport a wee grin while creating new pieces.

Wishing you a downright delightful weekend.

simple pleasures...

2011-07-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

this week...there was this...

and this lost wee man...he belongs in this country home..not far from the sea...

and this...oh my...

and a little guy...who loved it all...

then another day we did this....

to see our lovelies artwork here

first hers

then his...

there was a huge slide...(where Mum stood below with heart in throat)...

and lastly the awe and amazement for

our wee man to see his first one man band show...
now that was good.

What a fine week it was.

wee little lady...

2011-06-28T21:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday found me in one of my fav fav thrifting spots, with little ones in tow, and as much as i thought that might be a tad bit crimping of my shopping style...it was delightful!

at first there did not seem to be too much to my liking, then around a corner, on a table scattered with various treasures...there she was standing proudly just a few inches high in all her wooden beauty, with her hair cropped blond & short (like moi), she had the most lovely dress, which surely was handpainted in her homeland of Finland...she has traveled long (and perhaps a bit hard, for there are a few scratches on her backside) to find me.

she cost so little and has already brought much happiness and inspiration such that i cannot explain...
this wee little lady now sits quite cheerfully on my desk where she recounts tales of adventure, friends, men folk in faraway lands and lessons learned....she is sure to meet some new friends around this country home not far from the sea in no time at all.

her name is yet to be determined, but if you know me, you know, she will be adorned with a rightful name before weeks end...

here is to little ladies who find their way into our homes, give us inspiration, mystery and insight from a lonely spot on a consignment table to the warm and fuzzy spot on my sunny desk

on days such as these...

2011-06-18T21:49:00.000-07:00

sometimes when children are sick...doesn't happen a whole lot...but when it does..
you stay home and secretly enjoy the solitude of homelife (and constantly hope they get better soon), but embrace the fact that you all do not have to go anywhere..anytime soon...and so you:

build forts and pretend to live in 100 year old castles in faraway, exotic lands...like Scotland or Texas and places like that...

you draw toucans with oil pastels..because oil pastels..ROCK
you take countless water breaks on your unending worksite..also known as your backyard..which, no matter how much work you do...never seems to be close to finished...enjoy the process...that is my mantra.
and you plant..plant...plant and love what you do...always...how about you?

listening to...

2011-06-14T18:42:00.000-07:00

this wonderful remake...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tA3RKUHhN5A&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

newfound love affair...

2011-06-13T17:53:00.000-07:00

so when fz came home last week and announced that we must get ourselves a barn owl...i gave him that familiar look...the look that says, silently, kindly and quite honestly 'you may really have lost it this time'...but upon further research ( i am told by a expert and researcher himself, that this is just the beginning of my love affair) i am excited to announce and quite smitten to admit that a barn owl is just what this wee home in the country, not far from the sea has needed....and so begins an exciting and wonderful adventure, of which I hope to photograph and document, although i am not too versed with nighttime photography, so please do be patient.

tata for now all you nightowls...

i think it is here...

2011-06-10T09:56:00.001-07:00

When I was a little girl, I remember how, in California, the transition from Spring to Summer was so clear...well, there was always a bit of 'June Gloom' but overall, the onset of Summer was quite evident..and the warmth of this time of year was undeniable...what has happened?...I am not too sure...Mother Nature is an odd gal of late, the one real definite sign that Summer is here, is that school is out in a few days.
I sometimes dream of living somewhere completely different, maybe colder (no snow please), maybe wetter (but not too much rain please), by the sea, in an old house, with a studio (already standing) out back...but then I look around where I live, these green hills, this old home, the warmth of the sun (when it does come out) , the ocean not far from here...and I realize this is truly home...for all the unpredictability and bi-polar ways of mother nature...this is home.

Here is to the start of summer...

I think.

strong like bull...

2011-06-09T12:26:00.001-07:00

he is built of muscle, runs like the wind, chews and swallows any ball...golf, tennis, baseball, bouncy, you name it, in a matter of minutes, demolished, gone without a trace (until a day later in varying forms), often he bumps into walls with his head, he is afraid of brooms and silly household items, his favorite spot is laying in the sun under the dining table with children wrapped around him, he has a secret calming spot just under his neck that will stop him in his tracks....he is a lover of kisses and hugs, late at night he is like a cat curled up on your lap (a 100 lb cat), his presence does not go unnoticed wherever he goes, he is feared by those unknown, but so so loved by everyone else...

this is the one and only Luke

today...

2011-06-07T17:36:00.001-07:00

i am another year older and at i like to think another year wiser...

No plans, are the best plans...

2011-06-02T13:37:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when there is no plan to do anything too special on a long holiday weekend...well, that can be the very best plan of all.

When friends call and have extra space to camp, you load up and go, with simply bathing suits, p.j.'s some snacks (and your camera bien sur)...there was much time spent with toes in the sand, collecting rocks, dragging seaweed, endless time dodging waves, some assessing of surf, then surfing, a bit of fishing, more sand in the toes, bocce ball tournaments, contemplating what to snack on next and overall just relaxing...for not one bit of planning involved...I would most certainly call that a good weekend...I sense Summer close around the corner, and I am ready.

Here is hoping yours found you relaxing and enjoying the weather, wherever you might be.

fresh turn...

2011-05-22T18:53:00.000-07:00

of a page...with a new journal comes new awakenings, new light, new breath, new colors, feelings, to name only a few...

this weekend brought me insight, calm, love of meself, trust (that was a mantra all through the day), inspiration...and so much more.

Colors, textures, raw sense, feeling, touch, beauty...and yes, trust, again.

I do so love a handmade life...

N'est pas?

yoga for gardening...

2011-05-19T20:42:00.001-07:00

it has become quite clear that yoga is most beneficial and handy when planting and tending to hardy lovelies on a very steep hillside...all this digging and planting, stretching, balancing and watering...breathing deep sighs of gratitude that i did not tumble down the hill...
ahhh the bliss of it all, the zen of succulents sitting happily in dry soil, not asking for much, just a wee wink & a nod...

...so simple to tend, downright easy to love...life should always really be this simple.

Don't you agree?

something to long for...

2011-05-16T15:44:00.001-07:00

My creative work space is cramped & quite uncreative...I cannot deny it, nor can I fool myself. I have configured and adjusted and modified all that a gal can, and still, it is situated in our living space and is cluttered...causing me in turn, to feel cluttered. One cannot create in a zone of clutterness, it is just not right. So, I had to get savy as space in this home in the country, not far from the sea, is limited. I went outside the box, no literally, I went OUTSIDE this box and figured out that there is a lonely piece of land in the yard just calling out for a creative space to be built...honestly, I sat down on the dirt and I heard the trees whisper 'bring us a shed to watch over' I promise. Although, it may also have just been such a deep rooted desire to have some space of my own that caused little voices in my head. Whichever the case, it is starting to happen, FZ even told me today that he has the wood to frame my new shedalicious zone!:) I am scouring for recycled windows and am feeling giddy with excitment...oh the shelves, table, couch, rug, cork board, I think I want a chalkboard wall...it is swimming deliciously through my mind.

taking some time...

2011-05-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

It seems so easy to get caught in the rush of it all...do you feel that? In the everyday go go go...it gets a bit much at times and feels like a tornado passing by (continuously)...all it seems one can hear is the whirlwind of life which often gets overlooked and underenjoyed. By resuming my yoga practice at the start of this year, I have found that my time is slowing, just a little mind you...not that it is actually slowing but I am slowing and taking some time. In doing so, it has become clear that there are many things awaiting my awareness and ready to take flight, these were bypassed before and in the bustle of the hustle never even were noticed.

Now is that time.

Here's to hoping you take some time to hear the wind, not the whirlwind, but the real wind, the one in the trees, passing by dropping a whisper in your ear, blowing pollen through your garden...
Go gently you fine folks.
Still Lily

11 years...

2011-05-06T13:23:00.000-07:00

11 years ago today was a most amazing day...friends and family met on the grass to listen to live music played by a dear friend, soak up the sun and as my dearest Dad, rest his soul, walked me down the grassy isle, everyone joined us as we said some short lines written from our hearts and another dear friend married us to the sound of applause and laughter by all! What a road it has been and still so far ahead to travel!

I love you FZ!

cook book love...

2011-05-05T08:50:00.001-07:00

I am loving my new Super Natural Every Day cook book which arrived a few days ago...biggest dilemma is what to make first...the recipes are amazing and simple and the photos are beautiful. I have turned to Heidi's blog countless times for ideas and inspiration and now I have my very own copy...

What are you cooking these days?

have boots...must travel...

2011-05-03T15:41:00.000-07:00

That is, travel to new places right here at home...does that make sense? well, it does when you take into account that sometimes the things we need to do to push us into that next place are RIGHT under our own noses...and so, for a few weeks now there has been much flopping and flipping around and not really knowing where things were going, but thanks to a wise friend today who provided direction and a goal to set in place...I think this gal will be moving out and beyond...feeling inspired and lifted. Funny how friends can be right at the right place at the right time and give us just what we needed. Love that...quite simply defines why they are friends, I suppose.

So here is to traveling beyond, right here....a good day to all and to all a calm space.

New arrival...

2011-04-30T10:22:00.000-07:00

Today this arrives in our home...and I am just tickled pink.

glitches and such...

2011-04-25T14:05:00.000-07:00

This weekend while camping, my old reliable phone took a sick turn of events and stopped working properly, things went haywire and it just came time to put her to rest...this would seem to have been a sign, as I truly come from the belief that one should really not have their cell phone whilst camping anyways, for reasons so obvious there is really no need to elaborate.
This no phone thing, put me in a place of disconnect (very cool place, I might add, where everyone should try visiting frequently), and the peace of mind that came from not knowing the time of day, or if calls were missed or text messages sent and such, was very freeing and calming.
Now, upon returning home, the search for a new phone has become a day long process, and it has started some thinking about all these new 'apps' for phones and photos...I started playing with a few pictures on the computer and have decided that it is time for a new phone/camera adventure.

I am excited to try some new phone photo experiments.
Hope your day is a lovely one!

heading out to the sea...

2011-04-17T20:52:00.000-07:00

when all else fails...ok, so when spring break comes around, what better place to go than seaside...we have loaded up our lovely 'Snits'and are heading for the ocean...

...to ride the tides, feel the breeze, connect with friends, and just be together...

happy spring break to all...and to all, a wonderful time;)

blog randomness...

2011-04-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

i have come to the conclusion, that i am a stumped blogger of late...by this, i mean that i have not been too certain what to post or share, i have been busy with new creations and doors that have opened to places that i really must explore, this has in part, kept me quite busy, not to mention keeping home and biz afloat...and at times it feels like days slip by and all that needs doing, barely gets done...and so, you say, that is life young lady, now move along. on yet, another random note...

our surroundings have such a huge impact on us, our work, our creative flows, attitudes, peace of mind, our whole being...really, and this old house in which we live needs some serious work, this is keeping me from feeling a lightness or freedom and so, this is a time to push forward through that and get to the other side, get it done, as overwhelming as it seems. i was thinking that maybe i will start to post progress and befores and afters, then maybe, just maybe, softly and creatively it will force me into the mode of completion, something to report and be accountable for...we shall see.a lonely, empty veg/herb planter...

Nobody Knows Me...

2011-04-02T20:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes my heart just melts...family, friends, old pals, memories and wonderful heartfull thoughts of times now, past and to come... love this man and every single bit of music he has ever created..

have a divine rest of your weekend, you fine, lovely folk...

lentil love...

2011-03-30T12:36:00.000-07:00

yesterday i put some items in a pot, sauteed a couple vegetables then simmered...and today I served myself up a wee cup of love for lunch... i recommend that time be spent in the kitchen each day preparing something healthy (preferably in larger batches to enjoy for days to come) and sitting down to enjoy some comfort in a bowl to warm the soul.

Here are the ingredients, and I apologize for the lack of exact measurements, that is my cooking style, you can make to your liking/consistency:

soak approx. 1 1/2 cups lentils overnight

organic vegetable stock approx. 3 cups

curry powder mixed with stock to create a sauce like consistency

chopped cauliflower (approx 1 cup)

2 chopped scallions

sea salt

pepper

red pepper flakes

sautee cauliflower and scallions in curry sauce adding stock if dry, till soft

add vegetables and lentils (now soft) to stock

simmer adding seasoning to your liking

let sit overnight (in fridge)

warm up and serve with brown rice crackers, pita, whole wheat tortilla, or just alone!

hope you are having a downright lovely day.

lazy saturdays...

2011-03-26T17:42:00.001-07:00

saturdays are for...

baseball...

reading in the sun on an old, comfy couch...

baking cupcakes from scratch...

eating cupcakes while dogs dream of sweet treats...

working on unfinished projects (believe me, there are plenty!)
and relaxing at home.

little gifties...

2011-03-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

when just a little something is in order...to show a little love...give a little appreciation...share a little bliss...
here's to the little things in life.

And here's wishing you a big wonderful day!

spring into...

2011-03-10T13:51:00.000-08:00

it has become quite clear to me, as of today, that i apparently am a spring cleaner...

with vim and vigor cupboards are being cleared, boxes are being labeled, there is some goodwilling happening and overall organizing which is creating peace and calm around these parts...anyone else feeling it?

there is a spring in my step...the air is a wee bit warmer and the sun is shining a tad differently...longer days are upon us and the dark shall not last quite as long come this weekend.

may the warm sun shine your way...

all you fine feathered folks.

rocking on...

2011-03-04T15:21:00.000-08:00

Ok, the fog is lifting and the slump in which I was dwelling for the past couple weeks is moving behind me...with this shift, comes the pull and that exciting little way that my head gets full and I cannot write my ideas down soon enough...rocking on, buy that, I do mean literally...to represent strength, patience, gratitude, courage...just to name a few.

Soon to be revealed.

Have a warm weekend, wherever you may be.

Still Lily

concrete shoes...

2011-03-02T21:56:00.000-08:00

i have not been here lately...and really, it makes me quite sad, however, sometimes when the head is heavy and the mind uninspired...well, it is sort of hard to come visit with high hopes and positive vibes. Lately, it feels as though I am walking in concrete shoes and a drooping creative soul...that means to say, not a whole lot of awe-like dabblings happening and sparks are far from flying as well...BUT, i do feel with confidence, that this is soon to change for the pull of tides and the rising of thoughts has simply born into some ideas of wonderful things soon to sprout and grow.

Things really do come around...patience is my mantra.

8 years wonderful...

2011-02-22T13:37:00.000-08:00

8 years ago today at 2:11 p.m. our lives were changed, awakened, filled up, made brighter, I could go on and on with warm adjectives and still not convey the amazingness (a word I possibly just made up) of this little gal. Time does really go so very fast (as is repeatedly told to you when you become parents, and it really is true), here is to all this little gal has done and all she is to become...today we celebrate her (well, really she gets wee celebrations all week long!) and the wonder of her sweet presence or presents in our lives.

Happy Birthday Baby Girl.

more i learn...more i grow...

2011-02-09T19:08:00.000-08:00

and i have been learning and growing this week...completely absorbed in this book...eyes wide open...with heart intent and soft breath.

you can learn more here

because, i don't know about you...but to me, the next best thing to sexy...is, afterall, crazy....or is that vica versa?

color love...

2011-02-06T18:22:00.000-08:00

loving color and texture....

spring is in the air...

down by the sea...

2011-02-04T18:47:00.000-08:00

so many things become clear...so many ideas come to light
when i can't figure out where i am headed...this is where i go to see what is right...

and then i take my time, stop, look with intent, listen with heart open, and somehow seem to be able to sense everything...
it is in these moments...the salt breeze brushing by, stirring my soul...waking me up...like i have never been here before...the raw nature of it all, grounds me.
and every little thing makes me stop and breathe...in a small moment, i embrace it all,

and it is

too big to hold, and then just right.

small but so sweet

2011-01-29T09:37:00.000-08:00

it recently struck me that sometimes smaller is better so i have been working on a few wee small orbs to adorn some lucky folks' desk, mantle, bedside table (guaranteed to make you sleep with a smile), bathroom counter, a windowsill (not too sunny)...oh the places really truly are endless.

Please do BEWARE as it has become quite clear there is no way to gaze upon these little lovelies and not giggle.
to sit small, but so sweetly, on the shop shelves tomorrow.

rest a minute

2011-01-26T12:44:00.000-08:00

Today I took the advice of my most wise tea cup and just sat quietly resting a minute (the chocolate was not necessarily included in that advice but was a lovely addition, i might add)...

This was much needed and my journal was feeling lonely so i filled it with a dream from last night, some thoughts and a few questions on life to ponder for a spell...

Please do remember to rest a minute in your day (please do note: a cup of tea and chocolate biscuit help whilst resting).

Go gently and have fun.

a good day...

2011-01-23T09:01:00.000-08:00

when a day includes...

a trip to a brand new beautiful library with wee ones in awe & arms full of new books to explore...
sewing with one's daughter
felting
gardening
cooking
swinging under the stars
starting a new knitting project

well then...you could most certainly say this has been a good day.

a few random things to come...

2011-01-11T05:57:00.000-08:00

Not sure if it is due to this fresh new year, or perhaps mere coincidence...but new ideas and creative flow just keep sprouting out of nowhere. On this second week of choices I find the air to be quite clear and this mind downright open.

Oftentimes, I think that the thought of making changes to certain aspects of one's life, is more difficult and daunting than when you actually put out the energy to make them...and then experiencing the results, that you could not imagine before, just helps to keep you opening to new places in your own wee self.

That said, here are a few glimpses of what is on the horizon, sprouting up out here in the country, not far from the sea...to tickle and spark your curiosity.

Have a simply, downright, fantastically marvelous day you kind folk.

back in the saddle...

2011-01-06T09:10:00.000-08:00

i'm back...and the shop is open, shelves will soon be adorned with new designs to tickle your fancy and warm your heart...or perhaps just make you giggle for no particular reason at all.

this year...

2011-01-04T09:31:00.000-08:00

this year, i choose to...

breathe deeply

remain calm

practice yoga
& self care

sip less wine

laugh more

tackle large landscaping

consume green smoothies daily

expand my knitting & sewing skills

have ongoing patience with wee ones

just to name a few...

these are few of my favorite things...

2010-12-24T20:19:00.000-08:00

and we are off to do more of our favorite things...till the new year, we will have our toes in the sand, wind in our hair, surf under our feet and good friends surrounding us...may your days be filled with love and wonder and hoping your new year brings you more of your favorite things...

go gently and enjoy

things that make my heart swell...

2010-12-22T19:59:00.001-08:00

today in the sludge and rain i ran out to the end of my driveway, in rubber boots and hooded coat, opened my wee mailbox and lo and behold there was an envelope, a precious gift, completely sent by surprise, and with heartfelt intentions to my doorstep...i ran inside and out of the storm, opened it slowly...because that is the fun in receiving a gift unexpected in the mail...and there in front of me, was a gift of the most wonderous kind. For it was from a long time friend, who's talents amaze me, and she remembered this was so special to me...and will now be for many years to come...i love these women in my life, who bring me back to what matters and remind me of what is true.

thank you my dear.

just today...

2010-12-15T14:30:00.000-08:00

marching out the door...lovelies destined to arrive as gifts just in time for st. nick... tis the season.

whilst sitting still...

2010-12-08T09:28:00.000-08:00

it is a proven fact that when sitting still, i cannot let my hands be idle.

when i offered to make a wee sweater for my tea pot, well, she was just downright overjoyed, she has, after all, been quite cold of late...and now my tea stays cozy too.

of course cups need to stay warm as well.

felted beads sitting in a bowl just wondering where they would end up found a lovely home on a strand to brighted the wrist of a lucky christmas recipient...and then lastly, a felted flower to adorn one's boring old coat...i love sitting still.

tis the season....

2010-12-01T20:01:00.000-08:00

they say 'tis the season' well, today i was out there in the hussle and bussle and let me tell you that folks are hardly as kind as they could be...lesson to self: it makes one quite simply happy when you let them in on a traffic line (which, i must note, i always do), and to not be so pushy and in a hurry makes folks a wee bit more gentle and kind...let us practice this season...the work of kindness and consideration, of being patient and seeing what is in front of us, instead of forging ahead of it all...may our hearts know that love and family, friendship and peace is what it is all about, not just for this 'season' but for always...

go gently, enjoy and have fun.

ta ta for now, you fine, delightful and kind folk.

i have felt in love...

2010-11-29T08:50:00.000-08:00

felting by the christmas tree last night

I have knitted since i was a young girl, taught by my Irish grandmother who would visit sunny California for 6 weeks every year and bring me the most wonderful sweaters, vests (yes, I wore vests back then), hats and mittens. We would sit outside in the sun, or at the kitchen table and knit together, she would fix my mistakes and compliment my work.

I love wool, the smell, texture, working with it, and have been very interested in felting for a long time...so, when this great gal offered up her little workshop, I jumped like a wild banchee.

And well, I have fallen in love with felting and am finding myself thinking of when I can sit down to felt next...

quiet breaks...

2010-11-23T13:48:00.000-08:00

this is a holiday week for us, all week, and sometimes at times such as these it is nice to have the quiet of home life, little mumbles of conversations in the corner from dolls and lego men, building grand ships and exploring new galaxies, baking cookies and eating them out of the oven, playing games at the table, spreading out on the floor to play together, reading on the couch, starting the making of christmas gifts...

such a warm and cozy time.

It is for these things...and so so many more, I am most thankful.

The Girl Effect: The Clock is Ticking

2010-11-16T18:54:00.000-08:00

The Girl Effect is defined as the powerful social and economic change brought about when girls have the opportunity to participate in their society.

When I was 7 my family moved to Africa...the middle of Africa, that is, to Bangui, the capital of Central African Republic...for a young, blond, California girl this was, to put it mildly, a HUGE shift in culture, language, lifestyle, family life, friends, all around LIFE changes beyond description...I saw things and experienced the raw reality of life, for which I had not been prepared for, no one could prepare me for that type of change.

The open market, unusal foods, shifts in security, I remember being viewed as a very different kind of person, my hair and fair skin was something of an awe-like nature to this culture, it made me feel separated and uncomfortable in a way I could not define at 7....this was to be my life for a few years.

Private French school, arts, education, music, so different from life in So. Cal....and I fit in, but always felt different. All the while, I would see the young African girls, close to my age, walking by and working everyday on the busy road near where we lived, carrying large bundles on their backs and heads, carrying babies, which I thought were brothers and sisters, but now do not know...I had no idea what was happening there at this time and now realize that life in these cultures, does not change or shift too much over time, and so The Girl Effect speaks to me on so many levels and I see this and it touches my soul...I know this to be true, I know it is real...let's make a difference...today.

Here is how you can do something right now: 1. Learn more here.

2. Donate to the cause right now.

Get in the know here.

around the bend...

2010-11-11T20:05:00.000-08:00

on a recent sunny day, this wee family drove down a country road, out of the blue we passed an opening in the brush...

we glanced at each other

'what was that we just saw?

we must go back.'

this is what we found:

crumbling paths from a time long ago...

mosses and lichen of the most wonderous kind...

men connected with the earth.

paths paved by broken down trees,
time, it would seem, had won over here, in the most beautiful of ways.

traveling on still...

up, up further into the hills...

we found the resting places of fairies and gnomes
where they find homes in trees and brush...surrounded by the mystical, the magical.
wee creatures greeted us, then flittered home to be with their loved ones.

we danced...like no one was watching...

because no one was watching.go gently and love the moment.

in the midst...

2010-11-07T20:10:00.000-08:00

in the midst of chaos...i stop and remember the bliss of work, the love of my hands in the soil, the creating of things small and wide, the feel of grapewood in my hands and the connection i have with my work...so, i breathe deeply and stretch my bones, feel the earth under my feet and move onward.

be kind and gentle lovelies.

fun time of year...

2010-11-07T09:46:00.000-08:00

it is just plain great to dress up and share in fun and memories...

i downright love this little family of mine.

truth be...

2010-11-03T14:13:00.000-07:00

portion of yard work before....

and ahhhfter...

things don't go as planned...
that is a fact, i know, however, when it hits you in the face and you are reminded at times when something of importance goes awry, well, it does not feel too great, and often causes much distress....i am here to not always write of the lovely and interesting...but, sometimes of the reality that is life and pretty much can throw one for a loop.

so, i think forward to positive results, to moving ahead in a calm and clear manner in order to work through it all.reminder to self: stuff does roll downhill...afterall.

seeing clearly....

2010-10-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

Carly Simon sure had it right when she sang, so many years ago, that she could see clearly now the rain has gone...here in Southern California we have experienced some unusual October weather in the way of lightning storms, thunder and rain...and it is really rather magnificent, to say the least. Everything is green, clean, fresh and feeling fall-like. Our weather changes here are subtle compared to other parts of this country, however, they are all I have known, and it is always refreshing to experience the change in seasons and the shifts into new pockets of the year.
I am seeing more clearly these days, as life takes busy turns with wee ones and their needs and priorities become so clear, and the time spent with them is so important, letting some other things fall to the side is just a natural occurence, of which I accept. I still struggle with the balance of it all, but embrace the resolution of completely being present for them and the attention they require. Around these parts we are shifting and making changes to our living environment and I realize that once you make some choices to move forward, you don't realize how stuck you might have been...now I do. The unstuck feels wonderful, the plans and decisions for our home/yard which FZ and I make together have been overdue and seeing our plans come to life lifts my heart and makes me smile.

On another note, some designs have made their way back from space and have landed on my wee doorstep in the country not far from the sea....soon, to land on a shelf here.

Hope all you little lovelies have a splendid day.

boy...joy...of my life...

2010-10-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

5 years ago in the early morning of October 23, i looked over at FZ and told him it was time to go to the hospital. i had had a great pregnancy, did yoga avidly up until the day before labor, had a fairly quick and smooth delivery and knew that i was having a boy, but when the nurse handed him to me in the delivery room and i looked down at his sweet face, my life was altered and my heart opened and warmed in the most amazing of ways. of course, i knew this feeling from delivering our daughter a few years before, but it is just a little different with each, i suppose. although, what was to happen over the next few days, was something i was in no way, prepared for, nor equipped to deal with...

i have vivid memories of our quiet, calm and peaceful bubble of a room. i remember just him and i sleeping surrounded by the sweet smell of new baby, wrapped like a burrito in that soft stripped blue/pinkish hospital blanket...then him in the bassinet/sleeper next to me, listening to his breath, crying softly out of joy and feeling so connected in every way to my new boy. on the second day in the hospital we were informed that there was an issue with his heart, unsure of the origin of the problem, tests were performed and large machinery wheeled into our previously peaceful room. visits from doctors i had never met, nurses checking in at all hours listening to his heart. i was flown headlong into a place of fear, desperation, disbelief and stress.

we went home, but with no real answers and much uncertainty about the upcoming days/months...he returned at 2 weeks to have his heart procedure performed, and it was a success (for now), no medications required in his life, just follow ups, no real restrictions per say. he is an amazing, beautiful boy, full of all the curiosities and wild indian ways of a wee man...he is constantly amazing us all with his quirky, fun and creative ways. he is a lover of kisses, cuddles and hugs, never holds back on sharing his affections. he looks up to and cherishes his sister (even while chasing her with a sword). he has changed my life, altered my views, caused me some stress and countless sleepless nights, i have experienced emotions and feelings of which i never knew existed. i have come out stronger, more grounded, more aware of the fragility of life, the simple fact that one little moment can truly change your world forever. he has taught me lessons of life that will dwell inside me forever, his being is so amazing, his presence always was meant to be.
i am such a lucky girl.

happy birthday to you, our wonderful boy.

prepping...

2010-10-15T20:57:00.000-07:00

around these parts fall is in the air...halloween decorations are up, there is talk of costumes and days are cooler, it has been a little rainy and we are hunkering down inside getting ready for the holidays, making lists of gifts to make by hand, finishing projects and getting ready to start new ones! this is one of my favorite times of the year, traditions and family keep us grounded at times when we need it most...and lately, i have needed it most.

pull of the tides...

2010-10-13T10:00:00.000-07:00

they swim till dark...
fearless and free
crashing into waves with abandon
holding breath
emerging in giggles
watching the other in a silent, secret game
holding sand crabs who tickle their palms
then setting them free...with directions to find their sea families...

pockets of broken shells and rocks mix with wet sand

talking to secret sea monsters living in handmade castles

dragging tails of seaweed up and down the shore

finally too dark for the sea

wrapped in towels

sharing whispers about the fun and adventure of such a day....

spaced out...

2010-10-08T14:29:00.000-07:00

some space inspired designs are heading into the shop next week and here are just a few glimpses...

have a lovely weekend...

the perfect protest

2010-10-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

taking part in a protest this week (to be carried on indefinetly) called The Perfect Protest, I just love love this whole concept, and Brene Brown for putting this out into the world to join in. I am embracing my imperfections in all their glory. With everything I have on my plate these days between kids, business, home, life, I find myself thinking that I have to do them all perfectly and appear to have everything all together...when in fact, I don't and that is just fine. I am letting go of so many ties that bind which are bred from the idea of having to be perfect. I am fogiving myself and loving all the imperfections, which in all reality, are me. So I am throwing perfection out the window and bidding it farewell, it was not a welcomed guest and has done no good. No more Mrs. Perfection here!

lone fisherman...

2010-10-06T08:14:00.001-07:00

our wee man sz has taken to fishing...oddly enough, this has not, in the past, been a family sport per se, he became enthralled with this interesting pastime while we were up north on the coast and he met a little guy his age who enjoyed squirrel fishing...yep, tie a carrot on the end, cast off into the bushes and wild yonder and watch the squirrels shoot out of the blue every which way to catch that carrot as it gets reeled in amidst giggles and knee bending laughter...so, upon our arrival home, he wanted a fishing pole of his own, we obliged, with the understanding that anything caught would be returned to it's rightful home.

last weekend while camping, sz made it very clear that surf fishing was going to take place during our trip (and that did not stop being made clear, over and over and over again)...what came about, was quite a interesting surprise for me.

our 4 year old, who by, most counts, just loves to run like a wild indian and holler and hoot, climb on rocks, dig sand moats and do such boy things...however, when he got that bait on his hook and tied on his wee weights with the help of dad, he headed down to the shore alone and there he stayed, calmly, quietly, casting and reeling in amongst the waves and tide, every once in a while looking back when casting so as to make sure no one was walking by he might snag a hook on.

he reminded me of an old soul, still and peaceful and taking it all in, the ocean in all its wonder and enjoying just being on his own, doing his own thing. these little ones surprise in so many wonderful ways, it just never ceases to amaze.

may your day be peaceful and calm, even if it is not at the shore casting your line.

in the wee details...

2010-09-29T20:52:00.001-07:00

sometimes you just can't help but stop...

listen...

look...

feel...

be...

know...

cherish...

open the mind...

and be still, in the wonder of it all...

and at that very moment...

don't you feel that you may never have loved

your wee life quite so much...and believe you, me, it

tends to happen often...

cheers to a great week you fine, divine, wonderous folk...

happy trails...

2010-09-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

we came upon a hidden spot

at the edge of a cliff in northern california...
parked Snits

stepped out on the cliff...and walked a mile or so,

had not an idea what we would find
a secret path
beckoned us to walk on
so we kindly, quietly, obliged
and what we found there at the end of our trail
we shall never forgetnot ever over time...
for, that is, my fine feathered friends,
what family, love, adventures and time well spent bring to us...
filling the heart, nourishing the soul. have a delightful evening.

remembering....

2010-09-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

it is often when we get caught up in life, when we cannot see the ocean from the sand...when it all becomes too much...it is then, that we have to return to what makes us whole, makes us full...untouched sand at sunrise, wee barefeet running in sand dunes with no direction or plan, quiet cuddles and muttles of wonderment, tales of castles, queens and dragons...may we all curl up on the sand and feel the warmth under our skin.

at the end of the day...

2010-09-16T19:19:00.000-07:00

after lovelies are dressed up...

prepared for space (in this case)... or other such adventures...

adorned with earthly treasures and armed with all they require...

well, it is at that time in which we sit down and have a spot of tea,
chat about life and hang out...
i do so adore my work

and the beauties that keep me company...

who in the big wide world, would not...I ask you? who?

will not be back till after LA and signing off to wish you a delightful weekend...ta ta for now you fine folks.

out in space...

2010-09-14T14:10:00.000-07:00

that is where i would like to be sometimes...oh wait...perhaps that is just where i am at times...especially of late, prepping for the show and enjoying it all...there is something so wonderful about music playing, hands making, mind creating, envisioning, dreaming, being somewhere else and making it all real... are you having a good day sweet, kind folk?

waves and ripples...

2010-09-13T18:23:00.000-07:00

shot of untouched beachness wonder on trip in no. cal

this is how life feels at times...

comes in waves and ripples of wonder,

delight, amazement, stress

and overwhelmness all the same...

does it ever feel like that for you?

beauty came ashore...

2010-09-10T15:21:00.000-07:00

stumbled upon a path
paved in old wood planks
still, calm, welcoming me on
i knew not where it led
reaching an opening
the wind whirled like mad out of nowhere
it came whispering secrets and tales of long ago
around another curve i found a graveyard of lost souls

quietly inviting me in
softly they spoke
of long journey's at sea
their beauty washed ashore...
to bask in the sun

i stayed with them till the winds slowed

felt their warmth

was moved by their presence...

as the sun set

i bid farewell

returning home

heart full

mind free